22nd of may rehursals

To kick off the morning we started with a conversation about the previous session on emotional memory, this obviously didn't go down well with the class as they all expressed their anger towards what Jill asked us to do. I personally found the experience enlightening and a useful experience but others found it too emotionally demanding and deep.      During the morning’s rehearsals with Jill we worked on concentration following Stanislavsky's system, Dan and Danielle were asked to simply pour and drink a cup of tea. Dan kicked off the exercise giving us a very theatrical performance which I personally didn't find very realistic, this was due to him being too aware of the audience, then Danielle did the same thing and was a lot more fluent and relaxed, this highlighted how realistic and believable acting is on a very fine line alongside unrealistic performance. I learnt through concentrating on what you are doing and for filling your characters super objective to drink a cop of water you create a believable and truthful performance without even knowing it.                          During Daniels lesson today we were left to our own devices to go through our script and add our own twist on the direction we were taking with it. I really feel like me and Lofty made a connection as actors today and were able to feed of off each other’s emotion, this made our run through very emotional and true. Due to the workshop of emotional memories we had with Jill the previous day, I was able to channel some of my emotions into the scene and this really helped me. Today we also planned some movement and proxemics into the section, we added some powerful stage directions such as Lofty hitting the table when Alison (me) tries to leave. This was put in by us to express Jimmy's anger towards her trying to leave the situation just when it gets hard. This is followed by the line "you never even sent any flowers to the funeral" this is a very important line in the scene as it highlights the point when Jimmy showed emotional turmoil over the death of Hughes mum. Hughes mum was a very important figure in Jimmy's life as she acted as his surrogate mother and the fact that the woman he loved didn't eve send flowers angers him as he thinks she doesn't care about the most important person in his life. This would affect my character Alison as she would notice the emotional pain Jimmy is feeling in that moment and it would make her feel bad for not showing she cared in some way.